soft shell bottom-feeders / paella

saffron fingerish-stain
seeps its endless ink
the skin’s only link
to punishment for
disregarding

weeks unto decades
god-dammit, this

strain and its
pulse quickens
grotesquely quite

quiet

keep staring

did i say weeks?
i meant weaks
knee-less

lost a girl
and it still
bothers me

because

i never told her
she’s gone insane

blatantly, our shoulders
unhinged, tossed screws
into lakes without names
whose premonition is rust
hiding the body and trust
under sel-fish camouflage
distending our feelers
and projecting fear

but you see our dummies

like stretching sunflowers
only indigo, and curled fetal
no petal discontinuous, sealed

we slink and slime

the borders
of responsibility
are indecipherably
foreign, intimidating

i just walked away
after that last slug
too tired to return

be the good guy
is inhumane

and like i said
it’s in the mirror
simmering endlessly
in nostalgia’s throb

3 thoughts on “soft shell bottom-feeders / paella

  1. Did you really make paella? Man I wish I could eat your food. You sound like you must be amazing in the kitchen.

    I love this whole section:
    “lost a girl
    and it still
    bothers me
    because
    i never told her
    she’s gone insane
    blatantly, our shoulders
    unhinged, tossed screws
    into lakes without names”

    Beautiful: “like stretching sunflowers
    only indigo”

    I love the word “throb.”

    Oh yes, the first stanza is awesome. It all is, but these are my favorites.

    • I don’t know if I have the patience for paella… Not that I don’t make time consuming meals…. There’s just something about the staining qualities if saffron that I cannot commit to. I also don’t eat any seafood, so it would be half hearted, to begin with. Your analysis is brilliant, as usual.

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